This is not the episode that I thought I would be writing when I restarted this podcast back in August. I told you in the Season 02 teaser that I had big plans for what I would share, what we would learn and how we would better our lives with small changes in our homes. But what do they say about the best laid plans?
This is not the episode that I thought I would be writing when I restarted this podcast back in August. I told you in the Season 02 teaser that I had big plans for what I would share, what we would learn and how we would better our lives with small changes in our homes.
But what do they say about the best laid plans?
Sometimes shit just gets derailed… or something like that.
And so here we are, 10 episodes in with 2023 coming to a close and I’m writing the Season 02 finale. Even though, if I’m being honest, there was so much more I wanted to share with you.
So what happened? Why did I go radio silent for over a month with no explanation?
I guess you could say, motherhood happened. And it’s not a complaint – but when people tell women that “you can do it all” or “have it all” – you can have a career and be a full-time mom – that may be true, but you can’t also have a free podcast. And spoiler: you still can’t have it all without a shit-ton of work and behind the scenes help.
When I started working on Season 02 over the summer, we had a full-time nanny for my kids. And then at the end of August she moved to LA. I spent the next four months interviewing replacements until I finally hired someone in mid-November. I felt like I was back on track, I no longer had to fit all of my “real work” running my business, Factory45, into a two-hour nap window and I would have more time to invest in researching, writing and recording new episodes of this podcast. Even with an editor, each episode takes 3-4 hours to create.
And then, on the sixth day of this new nanny’s job she left my 19-month-old daughter alone on top of the changing table while she went into another room to dry heave over changing a dirty diaper. I know this because she called me upstairs to change the diaper for her.
So, yeah. After a four-month-long search, we are back to no childcare. For those of you parents who have figured out a way to run a business, work a free side hustle and be a stay at home parent at the same time, I applaud you. But I haven’t figured it out yet.
I still have plans in the back of my mind – I think this podcast could be a great HGTV show, something between The Home Edit and Fixer Upper but we go into people’s homes and tell them which products to switch out and educate them on things like seed oils and deodorant and VOCs – so I’ll put that out into the universe. But yeah, for now my plans will have to remain.. Just that… plans.
This is all just a long-winded way of saying thank you, I appreciate you and I’m sorry I left you hanging. I know it’s not a very juicy or interesting explanation. To be honest it’s probably the explanation that stands the test of time. Motherhood is demanding. But if that’s the season you’re in right now, too, then just know you’re not alone.
I’m wishing you all the happiest, healthiest holiday season – wherever you are in the world – and an even better new year ahead. I’m so grateful to each and every one of you for being a listener. It means more than you know. Here’s to creating a cleaner, more sustainable world for all of us.